Something has been bothering me for a while

Rae

Dear Diary,

There is something that has been bothering me for a while. Something I would usually opt to keep private; however, as mentioned many times before, I share my experiences in the hopes of encouraging others in positive change.

I finally saw a relative of mine, who I had not seen for a long time. This individual was one who I spent a considerable part of my childhood with, exchanging laughter and creating memories together. Over the years, though we were distanced because our place of residence separated us, we maintained that warmth we had always shared. We were no longer as close, but were always happy to see each other.

Recently however, things changed and till today I’m still puzzled, as I am unable to provide an explanation for what happened. The individual, who had returned home after some time abroad, had given me the cold shoulder. I shrugged it off, however, disregarding it, reminding myself that we are family after all and it has always been advised that “family stick together”, even in tough times.

I then reached out and received what seemed like a slap in the face. The open nonchalance was infuriating and I, humiliated, walked away.

Now I am a hot tempered individual and this behaviour instantly dissuaded me, and had I not been an individual who gave serious thought to things, right then and there I would have been done, as this behaviour seems ludicrous. I will admit that I passed the individual without uttering a word after I had seen them again. How could I after such blatant disregard?
My biggest fear is that this may continue for a long time as I reacted in the same manner that this person did; I too had returned the cold shoulder. It had nothing to do with me not wanting to reach out, I was just infuriated. I wish the individual had brought the problem to the table, after all one simply does not get angry for nothing, as opposed to reacting the way they did. But then, I realized that perhaps this individual was upset, so like me, caused them to react in the wrong manner.

We both took the wrong approach andI am hoping that the situation improves and that we can have a good relationship again. Friends, family, foe—we will always need each other. There is no disputing that; hence the old adage, “Be nice to people on your way up, because you’ll meet them on your way down.”

I hope that our readers are encouraged by this story. I am immensely flawed, but always try my best to improve, as I aspire to be the best that I can be.

Have a great weekend loves.
P.S, I start vaca very soon!
Rae A.

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