It’s frustrating to not know,
What you’re about or what you want,
But it doesn’t mean you’re not searching,
And it doesn’t mean you’re giving up.
I hate feeling like I have no place,
Wherein which I feel fully content,
That with all its ups and downs I’m still here,
Comfortable with what I have kept.
I hate it when it comes across as being indecisive,
When it shows like I’m not sure what I’m about,
Like I have no vision for my future,
Like I’m just wasting life wondering about.
It’s nothing like that I am not standing still,
I’m searching for something I can call my own,
I’m finally deciding to follow my heart and soul for once,
Searching for something that I have always known.
I know what I’m about even though you don’t believe me,
I’m not looking for riches or fame though it is welcome,
I’m just looking for happiness and peace within myself,
I won’t forget who I am or where I came from.
Just because I’m not career driven doesn’t mean I will lose,
And doesn’t determine I will or won’t have one,
I will find what was always meant for me to have,
I will grab and hold on to all possibilities until there is none.
I know you find me stupid but I choose not to care,
Just because you can’t see or understand the path I walk,
It’s a path only designed especially for me,
And at the end of that journey I will find what I’m looking for.
By: Zhane’ Springer